“She is clothed with strength and dignity without a fear of the future”
Fear. What is fear? The spot right here, where I stand in life, there is no such thing as fear. I am fearless! In school I am fearless because I know that I am successfully rolling through and almost have a year under my belt. In work I am successful because I am finally challenging myself again like I used to. I talk to people and they use such complex words and in my head all I can say is, what is that? Of course having so many questions in my head it drives me to find the answers. I am sure my bosses will be sick of me by the end with all my three-year-old-questions of who, what, where, when, and why. I find myself trying to complete the impossible. I am often labeled as a “go-getter”…or so I have been these two weeks at work, because I run 100 mph and never stop. I have so much going on in my life now that the only time my google calendar does not have color is the few hours I spend sleeping. I will admit before starting my job, fear bombarded my life. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be smart enough. I was afraid that I wouldn’t fit in. I was afraid that I would be so stressed that I wouldn’t pay attention to school. Two weeks in, and I can honestly say it is the complete opposite. After the first day of work my fear flew away. I am guessing it left with all the pintail ducks we have been seeing at the ponds. After the first week of being complex and being introduced into several projects, I realized I needed to narrow my goals a little. It did not take me long to figure out that until I am out of school, I will focus my time, effort, and energy on the outreach. Given that I know plenty of people in this small valley, this week consisted of a whole lot of communication. I contacted my old teacher from Alamosa Elementary. She is now a principal and put me in touch with the Spanish classes. Deisy and I met with them. We are now planning to be part of their ELL night for parents where we will present to the parents as well as having a crafts table for the kids. We also are excited because another teacher offered us an entire afternoon to spend with her class doing as we please. I am also in the process of dealing with a bigger project that is underway that has become very time consuming but I know will be worth it in the end. I am excited to spend time with the kids as well as educating them about the environment. I realize now that we do not have many more weeks to reach all the schools but I have made it both my challenge and goal to engage all of them. I will forewarn you to anticipate seeing a lot of kids in my pictures in the near future, but until than go birding, get outside, and stay warm. As I continue to let my strengths grow and my dignity show =) Fare well.
Blanca Wetlands Canada Geese